Friday, February 27, 2009

Friday Fill-ins

1. I'm hungry; I'm tired, I want to go home.

2. Why do I have a really frustrating job and not one that I love? Ah well, maybe someday.

3. How does this stupid 8th grade registration system work, anyway? Oh wait - it doesn't work, which is how all the schedules get messed up!

4. Every morning, I put "frizz stuff" on my hair. My hair is ridiculous and without "product" I look like Bozo the Clown. Seriously, I have pictures......

5. I consider myself lucky because I am blessed with a wonderful partner, the perfect baby, a job (even though I hate it) a nice place to live (even though I wish it was bigger) and friends and family.

6. One day we’ll see Parker roll over. Maybe she will be 3, but it'll happen eventually

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to hanging out with Kathy and H (hopefully), tomorrow my plans include taking care of some gifting errands as well as hanging with the in-laws and Sunday, I want to relax, but that's probably not going to happen!

Thursday, February 26, 2009

My Narcissitic Baby

My daughter is riciduous. Sometimes, when I need to use the computer I sit her on my lap and let her watch the screen. To her, it's a mini-television and she adores it. The background on our computer is a picture of Parker (I know this is shocking to everyone.) Lately, whenever the computer starts up and her picture appears, she gets very excited and does that fast breathing, limbs tightening thing she does when she is super excited about or interested in something.

I thought I would try a little experiment. I brought up our pictures and was showing them to her. (Yes, they are mostly of her!). She was super excited. She was smiling and laughing and leaning toward the screen. Then, we got to a picture that wasn't her. She stopped smiling and looked at me as if to say, "Um, Mom? Not me. Move it along!"

So, to those of you who occasionally babysit my child: If she's fussing, try showing her pictures of herself on the computer. She loves it. Silly, narcissitic baby.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Working....errrr....maybe not

Things I have done today at work to avoid actual work:

1) checked my e-mail
2) ate my lunch at 9:00
3) tried to figure out how to choose a realtor
4) stuff for the University Musical (work, but not technically for the job I'm currently working)
5) goofed on the ABC website (LOST - Tonight - Hello!)
6) made lists of things to do
7) blog stalked
8) looked at pictures of Parker
9) perused people's baby registries trying to decide what to buy
10) Discovered that IPS is taking away one week of everyone's pay and not giving it back until we retire or leave the district! WHAT????
11) Complained with a co-worker over #10
12) fantasized a little about "real" food
13) looked for houses
14) made this list

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Big Girl

I recently posted about how big of a girl Parker was getting to be. Apparently, she has decided to show us just how big she is getting by sitting up all by herself. She's been able to sit for a few seconds (30 or so) without toppling over for a couple of weeks now, but Friday she began sitting for extended periods of time before falling. So, I think we're going to count it - mark it in the book! She has by no means perfected the art of sitting, but she is doing it for minutes at a time, so I say that's good enough! Here are some pictures of my sitting "Nuggs."

Okay, so she is propped in this one because I was trying to get a cute one of her and the bear for my mom, but she made a ridiculous face and I thought it was too funny not to post.
Please don't mind the lack of sheets on the bed - we were changing them (which Parker thinks is the most hilarious thing in the world....I wish I found laundry that amusing!)

And, here's a not so stellar one of her sitting in the tub. No, she is not propped on Alicia's foot!

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

On My Mind

1) When/if Parker will roll over - I'm beginning to think that it's just not going to happen. It kind of seems that she could if she wanted to, but she is seriously lacking motivation. Maybe she'll just skip that step entirely. I'm trying not to worry about it, but the paranoid part of me is currently winning out.

2) What is going to happen with my job next year - Is the job share going to go through? If it does, am I really going to be able to teach kindergardeners? Really? I'm not opposed, it's just a long way from what I currently do. It's a change I want, but am nervous about.

3) The University Musical - I really want to do a good job, but a lot of it is out of my hands - however, in the end it will be mine to claim - good, bad or awful.

4) How I'm going to pull off the rest of this year - We have parades, graduations, concerts and 5 people coming to band......I don't know how I'm going to magically make the children appear.

5) Refinance or look for another house? Can't decide. I want another house, but I don't know if that's the best decision right now. Especially since our finances are kind of up in the air since I might be job sharing next year.

6) Our anniversary - We want to take a trip, but I'm worried about leaving Parker for that long. I can barely stand it when we have a babysitter for the night let alone leaving her for a whole week.

7) Parker in relation to the University Musical - How is it logistically going to work when Alicia and I have rehearsals at night and Parker has proven that she NEEDS to be in bed by 7:30ish in order to not be a super fuss when we get her up early the next day.

8) Where my baby went - Okay, so Parker is still a baby, but she is such a big girl in so many ways. I keep looking at the picture of her in our room from when she was three days old and wondering where that baby went. I miss her. I love the current Parker sooooo much, but I miss the old one too.

9) Miscellaneous thigns I need to do - wedding presents, baby presents, go through the clothes in my closet to sort out the fitting, the not fitting, the ugly, clean the bathroom, update the pics to Shutterfly so my mother doesn't kill me, get together with people in Indy who STILL haven't met Parker (ridiculous, I know)

10) Being a working mom - It's hard - not because I'm so tired when I get home but because it seems that the time I get to spend with Parker is all task-oriented time: changing her diaper, getting her dressed, feeding her, bathing her. When do I just get to play with her? I love doing all the task oriented things and I would rather have it than not, but I miss just hanging out with my baby. I don't get to play with her anymore.

11) Weight loss - I've been doing pretty well, but am getting a little antsy to get to the end or to hit some other big milestone. It's frustrating because I have such a long way to go. I keep telling myself that I'm 1/3 of the way there, but that doesn't seem to help. I'm trying to take it 5 lbs at a time, but sometimes that's too slow for me. As I have indicated before, I am an instant gratification type of person and weight loss is not an instant gratification kind of thing. ERGH!

12) Electronic "communication" devices - At one point last weekend, I was in the room with my mom, my sister and Alicia. 3 out of the 4 of us were "playing" on some sort of electronic device. I am sooooo sick of these "communication" devices keeping us from honestly, actually talking or hanging out. I know that I am as guilty as anyone, but really, why do we sit in the room with people we care about, people we supposedly like to spend time with and stalk our "friends" lives on facebook instead actually spending time with the people we are with? I'm not saying there isn't a time or a place for this activity I just feel like the world in general is missing out on real moments and living in virtual ones instead. Okay, off the soap box.....moving on.

13) Who on earth came up with the brilliant idea of having 26 minute classes on these PBA (meeting) days? My day has been totally pointless so far and, based on what the kids are saying, I'm not the only one!

Friday, February 13, 2009

Friday Fill-ins

1. It seems like I have the ability to screw it up every time.
2. Put away your music and stands when you're done, please?
3. If I thought you would actually play the drums correctly I'd fix them for you! I'm not about to fix them and spend time and money putting new heads on when you are just going to damage them again. Sorry. I'll fix them when the kids who know how to play them need them. Oh - and PS - you won't get to play them then. Sorry.
4. The rest of my life is what I think of most when I think of you.
5. To me, Valentine's Day means showing the people you love that you care.
6. Parker gives me strength. Never before in my life have I really been able to lose weight, but she motivates me to do it because I want her to be healthy and to not have a fat mommy.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to running the University pep band, tomorrow my plans include more pep band and Sunday, I want to hang out with my parents and sisters. Monday (because it's a three day weekend) I want to spend time with Alicia and Parker.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Pep Band and Parker

Apparently, no on in my period 5 class wants to show up today. Whatever. Free period for me! Woo-hoo! (There are really only two kids and I think they are both on one kind of suspension or another - great class, huh?)

I am really tired today. The music director at Alicia's school is away at a conference and I said that I would cover his pep band games for him this week (Wednesday, Friday and Saturday) I had forgotten how exhausting "real" teaching can be. For the last two years at this job, my schedule has been so awful that my classes have only a handful of kids in them and while I suppose that what we do can be considered "real," it certainly does not take the same amount of energy that it does to keep the attention of a larger group of students. It's been quite awhile since I have stood in front of an ensemble and had to give out as much energy as I want them to give back, collectively!

Overall, the game went well. The girls won, the kids played pretty well, given the situation. My dillemma is now that, although I had fun, I really missed Parker. This week has been awful for seeing her. I had the BGB Tuesday night, basketball Wednesday and I have basketball again Friday and Saturday. I feel like a horrible mother and am really sad that I am just missing all this time. Part of me keeps telling myself that next year should be better because I will probably be able to be home with her 2.5 days of the week, so when I do stuff like this I will have been with her all day first, thus making it a little easier. Then the other part of me speaks up and says that she will be a year old by then and I will have missed all the "baby" time. It makes me sad. I suppose that nothing can really change right now. I have committed to various things and therefore have to do them. I should just learn to say, "no." In the meantime, I guess I am just tired and missing my baby. At least it's a three day weekend.

Sunday, February 8, 2009


Yesterday, Parker got her first "real" meal. We had tried the rice cereal back in January, and it didn't go badly, just not wonderfully and we didn't want to push it considering all the changes that she was going through with me going back to work. Plus, when we went to the doctor, she told us to wait as long as we could (closer to 6 months) to give her solid food. Over the last few weeks, Parker has been making it very clear that she is ready to EAT! So, we gave it a whirl again last night. It was hilarious!

At first she didn't really know what to do, but she clearly liked it. She just kept getting really excited, sticking her tongue out
and saying "mmmm." (Literally, "mmmm." We have a video - it's frickin' hysterical!)
5 minutes later she had gotten the hang out it and was swallowing the cereal and opening her mouth as wide as possible (with tongue hanging out) faster than I could get it on the spoon! She ate the entire bowl.
This morning when we put her in her high chair to play while we ate (which we normally do) she got all excited thinking she was going to get more! Not until dinner, baby. :)

Friday, February 6, 2009

Friday Fill-Ins aka Boredom at Work

1. Please don't tell that I'm doing this at work instead of the thousand other things I could be doing during my prep.
2. Can you function well in the morning? I can't. I'm so glad that I'm on an alternate schedule this year because if I had to leave for school at 6:30, that would mean I would have to be getting up at like 4:30 in the morning and I am NOT up for that!
3. The color yellow makes me want to be outside on a warm (not hot) summer day!
4. I have a craving for more Chinese food or pizza or a BIG piece of cake or some cookies or ice cream or a big fatty Caesar salad or blue cheese or pie or that yummy mac-n-cheese from Noodles and Company.....(can you tell I'm on a diet?)
5. If my life had a pause button, I'd pause it in that perfect moment when Parker is being extra snuggly right after a bottle and she looks up at me and smiles.
6. Eyes are the windows to the soul. Someone said that - don't know who - but I really think it's true.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to something other than a diet dinner, tomorrow my plans include possibly a date and Sunday, I want to relax and get together our job share proposal!