Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Waiting

Ergh! Is it Thursday yet? For a brief period of time Sunday morning I thought that MAYBE we might do this ourselves before Thursday, but I am now thinking otherwise.

Part of me is super excited - to meet "Baby P," to not be pregnant, to begin our life as a threesome.

The other part of me is scared beyond belief - shoulder dystocia is ACTUALLY going to happen (I'm petrified of this), she will be a boy, she won't start breathing, I won't be able to physically do this, something will be wrong with her, I'm not grown up enough to be a mom, I won't think she is cute... The list just goes on and on.

This really all needs to be over with soon, so that I can start worrying about other things.

8 comments:

Kathy said...

I can't imagine how much patience it takes to sit there and wait until it's time for your baby to be born! :) So much to look forward to...I'll be thinking of you. I hope everything goes as smoothly as possible :-)

Cathy said...

For most of those worries, THAT'S WHY you're going to be at an awesome hospital with the pros and not having this baby at home in your bathtub. With your DNA this baby will be beautiful and amazing, I just know it. Though sounds like she's so big, she'll come equipped with cute fat rolls, so she should have cute covered. I can't give you any comfort with the boy fear accept to use Chris as an example that even boys, (and keep in mind I am a girly girl that was intent on having a girly girl) Even Boys can be Wonderful.

Lauren said...

All through my pregnancy I kept looking forward to Christmas, because I knew the baby was coming soon after. Then I got my induction date--the evening of the 26th. So, once all the Christmas festivities were over on the evening of the 25th, I officially turned into a basketcase. Worrying and freaking out. My stomach was a mess. Though all my worrying was for nothing, as everything turned out absolutely perfect!

I'm sure things will turn out beautifully for you too. You CAN do it! Your body is made to do this! Though it's perfectly natural to worry--it's a part of mommyhood!

I'll be thinking of you! :-)

Andrea said...

Those are all normal worries - deep breaths and your baby girl will be here before you know it! Yay!

Krysten said...

Been there and did that last week. Everything will be fine. Believe me, I never would have thought I could hang out in labor for more than 24 hours, but your body will let you do amazing things when it's what needs to happen. (Hoping you don't have to go through 24 hours of labor, though). I know it's MUCH easier said than done, but try not to worry and think about the bad things. Think about all the things that have already gone right with this pregnancy and getting this far and knowing you only have 2 days until you'll be holding a BEAUTIFUL, FAT baby in your arms. :)

Rebecca said...

Hope all goes well on Thursday...I have no doubt that you will do fine and Parker will be a beautiful healthy baby. Lauren is right that worrying is all part of motherhood. I am already worrying about number 2. Good luck and keep us all posted.

Andrea said...

Thinking about you today!!! Can't wait to see pictures of baby Parker very soon! :)

Lauren said...

Just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking about you today...